May 27 -- Written by Christie Rosenzweig
Don’t be sad that it is over; be happy that it has happened.
That phrase is one of the only things keeping my eyes dry right now. Those
words, along with the anticipation and anxiety of seeing my loved ones. I feel
anxious to see them because how can I ever answer the inevitable question “how
was your trip?” To say “it was amazing” or “the time of my life” would be an
incredible understatement of the experience that I just had. I can still hardly
fathom that I just participated in the 2012 China Exchange program. I can
barely believe that I have friends that I will miss desperately on the other side of the
world from my home. As a child I dreamed of digging a hole in my backyard to China,
but I never imagined what it would be like to actually be there. And when I realized that a trip to
China was my reality, what I experienced greatly exceeded any preconceived
expectations. The kindness, generosity, and friendship that I was shown are
still almost unfathomable. Not to mention the scenic beauty of the setting
where this amazing experience took place. A dream could not have been as
sweet.
At first I was not sure I would be able to handle spending
almost an entire month away from everything I have ever known. As a first time
traveler, and a complete homebody, I was more than nervous about how I would
react in such an unfamiliar setting. Now that this trip has ended, I feel as if
the time I spent here was only a mere fraction of the time needed to truly engage in this kind of experience. There is so much to learn about China, and Chongqing, too, that only experience can teach a person. I feel as if I have had
a little taste of what life is like in China, and it has only made me hungry
for a much larger bite.
I feel now more than ever that I want so badly to return to
this country. As I squinted
through tears while I waved my last goodbyes to the students who truly made
this trip worth writing home about, all I wanted was to stay and continue on
this incredible journey. Saying
goodbye to my closest Chinese friends was like leaving a part of myself behind.
I will cherish the new friendships that I have made and hopefully maintain them for
the rest of my life. This is just
the beginning of our relationship and I hope to continue to learn and grow from
my conversations with my Chinese friends and not let distance interfere with the bonds
we have made. I can only hope that they know how much I truly appreciate
all that they have done. I could
never say “thank you” or “she she” enough times to compensate for the efforts
and kindness they provided. I know
I will never be able to repay my friends for what they have given me through
our brief interactions, but I don’t think that is as important as what their
behavior has truly displayed. Because of how I was treated, I want to welcome newcomers to my country and assist them in any way I can. It’s not about repaying the
friends I have made, but about showing that kindness to complete strangers who
are in need of the same kind of assistance as I needed over these past few
weeks. It is challenging and even slightly embarrassing to be unable to
communicate with the people in your surroundings. I will never again be annoyed
by foreigners in America who are struggling with English, because I know now
that it can be equally as frustrating for them. Even people who were not
partners were patient, understanding and helpful, and I cannot say that I see
these same qualities demonstrated as blatantly in the country where I am from. I
can only hope that I have the opportunity to repay the kindness of the CTBU
students as I have these kinds of encounters in my American life.
There are too many things to miss about China to list
because it would only make me upset again. I do believe, however, that the
attitudes and behaviors that I was introduced to, and appreciated while abroad
can be just as prevalent here in America if I allow them to be. I will never, ever forget the lessons I
have learned or the friends I have made on this trip. I have a new appreciation, and respect for Chinese culture,
people, and attitudes and I am so grateful for this incredible experience.